Musings of a young dame making it in this Texas-boy controlled world.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Yesterday was good, but today will be better.

I'm inspired every time I hear Donny Hathaway's voice.

I'm inspired every time one of the kids at my program gives me a hug and tells me that today is going to be better than yesterday. (something I ask them everyday)

I'm inspired by Leela James' song - "Music".

I'm inspired every time I see Slim's lips, kiss him and he moans my name.

I'm inspired by people who are not afraid to care.

I'm inspired when I encounter people with gentle souls. (I wish I could be more like them.)

I'm inspired every weekday morning when I hear my kids sing Something Inside So Strong.

I'm inspired by those who love me and challenge me to give them that same love back.

I'm inspired when I think of how many people I can possibly encounter and touch in my lifetime.



I'm really trying to keep up with my blog, but I've been worn out lately. I'm still around and kicking though, so don't forget about me. I just recently caught up on my regular reads too, so I'm workin on it....

Monday, June 27, 2005





This is how my car looks. Exact color and year, except mine has a spoiler on the back. My daddy hooked ya girl up with a 2002 Nissan Altima in "Mystic Emerald", the only green color Altima's come in. It looks a lot darker in the picture than it really it, but it's a gorgeous color. I think I'm in love ya'll.....


Stats -
Make - Nissan
Model - Altima
Year - 2002
Milage - 19,300
Origin - New York
Interior - Beige
Extras - Spoiler, CD Player, Moonroof, Brand New Tires

Slim need watch out, because my new baby is on the scene!! Damn this car fits me!

I Think My Blog Cussed Me Out....

I've tried to log in like 4 times unsuccessfully. I guess my blog feels neglected and called itself getting back at me. I PROMISE I will be updating tonight.

What's been going on with me:

1. I got a car!!! It fits me PERFECTLY. I think I'm in love ya'll....

2. Slim is back in town. Read my previous entry if you need to know how I feel about that.

3. I will finally sit down and be able to finish the entry which pertains to the one in which I asked about black and white teachers.

4. I'm still steady on the grind with these jobs. So you KNOW I've got stories.

Peace. Be back after 9 today.

Monday, June 20, 2005

All I Want Is His Kiss

I've never wanted to kiss someone so much. And not the type of kiss that just has to lead to something else (although if it does that's ok too...).

I just want his lips on mine. Want to pull his bottom lip into my mouth and savor its sweetness.

Right now, I'd settle for just seeing his lips. Being able to touch them with my fingertips. Lightly, while he sleeps, like I did so many times before. Watch him as he gently kisses the inside of my wrists because he knows that turns me on. I miss his touch. I miss his kiss.

I miss all the things he can do with those lips.

Friday, June 17, 2005

Don't matter if you're Black or White?

I'm back from Tennessee. As always, I had fun, although the sun was literally licking my damn face the whole time I was there. I will come back with a full update later on...perhaps 2morrow.

But for now I have a question for you all.....


Can White teachers teach Black history as effectively as Black teachers? How much does the ability to relate factor into the effectiveness of the lesson? If I need to clarify more, let me know. It's late and I just finished working a 14 hour day - homegirl is tired. But I really wanna hear your opinions on this, I will tie it all in later, I PROMISE.

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Tommorrow I will cry ~ Yazarah

*I'm leaving for Tenn. in the morning and I will be gone for a week. Trust me when I say I will have NO access to the internet. So therefore I may resort to making a few audio entries via that nifty invention called the cell phone. That is all. You may now carry on to your regulary scheduled blog entry.*


Why does it feel like every time I make a move in what I feel is the right direction, I get my ass knocked back?

I guess certain things do come right on time.

I'm really big on quotes. Always have been. In high school, when my friends and I would write letters back and forth, I used to always put things like "Real eyes realize lies" or "Wherever you go, there you are" at the end. Just things to make them think. A few days ago I was at my girl's house and she had an old ass letter from me sitting out. I read it and at the end, after my signature, I wrote the words "Quelque chose beau attend...". For the life of me I cannot remember where I got that from, but it's supposed to translate to "Something beautiful awaits." I loved the thought that "after the rain, there is sunshine" and all those other good sayings that lead you to believe that all suffering, hurt and pain is not in vain. Where I'm going with this, I really don't know. Except to say this - tomorrow Slim is leaving for the summer. I thought it wouldn't bother me as much as it is. I don't think I'm built for the long-distance thing. I've done it once and I promised myself I would never do it again. Plus, our relationship is so new that I don't know if it can withstand tons of distance before we've had a real chance to solidify our respective places in each other's hearts. I'm confused, I'm upset and I miss him already.



Dammit.


Quelque chose beau attend....(hopefully)